I just finished a phone interview with a summer internship at a rather large news agency that may rhyme with ENN. It went well and she said that my skills and experience were exactly what they wanted - but that they could get someone who would work 5 days a week for free so could I do that? Internet, I cannot. This causes me great pain, because I would like to work in Washington DC and with newspeople and library stuff. I really, really would. But I have a family and daycare bills to pay, even 10 hours of paid work a week helps with that, and I just couldn't say Yes. This causes me great pain as well because I have NEVER been able to do an awesome internship because I have never been able to afford to work for free. Not many people can, I wager. HOWEVER, we talked about me coming up for 4-5 weeks to do a special project, which would actually be ideal. We shall see...
Also, describe yourself in three words. In a phone interview. This was one question that kinda threw me. All the words that came to mind were not positive ones. I'm suffering from one of my periodic bouts of "I think I'm the worst humans on the face of the planet" so the timing wasn't good. I fumbled my way to some positive description of myself but it was hard. I wonder how to cure these periodic bouts. Work harder? Be a better person (But I've been trying!)? Therapy? Acceptance that I am a deeply flawed human?
Also, I am about to write a posting on Craigslist in ALL CAPS that says "WHO DO I HAVE TO SCREW TO GET SOME CHILDCARE AROUND HERE?" Just doing my periodic check-in with all the waitlists I am on, looking for a glimmer of hope for for the Fall (I have been on these lists for 16 months!!!!) and I can't get one to say they have an opening. This is driving me insane - I really want to give you some obscene amounts of money in exchange for teaching my bright beautiful kid her colors and numbers and making her happy and not eating fast food for breakfast, please won't you let me? I can't quite afford a nice nanny but please, please please let me pay you. You will love her and she deserves more than a rather dreary and understaffed center. I don't think my offer of marital favours will sway you, but PLEASE TAKE MY KID. Cause I don't know what else to do. Perhaps you would like to do an internship for me?